It's time, to get honest. I'm sick to death of this stay at home mum business. I may have actually lost my mind at some point. Seriously. Playing house and cleaning sticky, pooey kids, sorting incessant squabbling and bickering- just ain't my bag anymore! Does that make me a bad mum? Probably, but I'm past the point of caring.
I've been in this parenting gig now for 14 years, I need something for me! I want a "real job" I'm craving satisfaction and recognition for my efforts and skills.
But...... I also cannot put my kids into a child care centre or have other people caring for them for more hours than I do (and feeding them hell knows what, and being sick all the time). Not to mention the massive issues I have with the 'one size fits all approach' that I have experienced in the past with different child care providers and/ or centres.
The big problem is, there is no job out there for me. Nothing I wouldn't become bored and frustrated with on day 1! I can't do mind numbing repetition, nor bureaucratic bullshit. I'm just not built for it. I also can't go back to making other people rich working for a boss. Its time to get real. What do I want and how am I going to get it?
My husband (and I) still want me at home with the kids full time. Our values are important to us! (and I'm an idealist). Haha. I want to create things and people buy it! Basically. At least plant a seed of thought, or open people up to some different ideas. I want to run my own business. I dipped my toe in the water with the cake making business. It was too limiting, not to mention kind of going against what I am about. It made me realise what is important to me. I still want to incorporate it, but to have the focus on other things.
I want it all. I want to feed, nourish, educate, celebrate and 'share the love' with everyone. (Those who know me, know I mean that in a totally non weird way! Haha!) And.... I want to do it in a way that has the least possible environmental impact! Forget Eco friendly! I'm an Eco lover!! Hehe (again, not a weirdo).
I figured I can do my own thing at my pace during the week, allowing me to still do all my motherly duties and kidwrangling as necessary. But also creating stuff. Lots of stuff. Come Sunday, I'm heading to market!!! I am already a regular at my local markets, only soon ill have my own site to sell my wares!! Haha perfect! I'm focusing on my soaps and the like to start, but will be adding plants, breads/ other food items, and all forms of handmade goodies. Ill do cakes on the side, and also from home, I hope to add my personal training into the mix maybe next year.
I absolutely love the idea of the markets! Why didn't I think of this sooner?? It's outdoors for a start (bonus!) and it's like having a shop, for one day a week! And being a market, my eclectic mix of stuff will fit right in! haha The best thing - no kids, no babysitters/ child care centers etc. I actually don't even care if I don't sell anything. Seriously. I'll only be down $10 for the site fee, and who wouldn't pay that for a morning break from the kids? Bahaha
But speaking of the kids, I think that my new venture (and running) not only gets me through those monotonous, depressing, frustrating days that come with having 5 kids but is re-inspiring me at home too. That can only be a good thing!
I am very excited! My sister and I are teaming up starting at the Caboolture Country Markets on Sunday the 7th of July! I hope to be there weekly! Or maybe do a circuit, we will work it out as we go! We will be the silly looking pair, that don't know where they're going/what they're doing!! Haha
I apologise for the lengthy story, just felt the need to explain how I have got to this point, and some factors that needed to be considered. etc. Stay tuned to the blog to see some of the things I'll be creating getting ready for market!!
Big thank you to my hubby Jessie, who is always so supportive and helping out with the kids, and making stuff for me! Also my sister Mel, also for helping with the kiddies and always encouraging. Im looking forward to this adventure together!